"What's happening?" "Oh you know that thing called life"

Since it has been forever and a day since I have posted something I decided tonight would be the perfect opportunity. Let's just start off with what has been happening lately. Work has been happening, it has been kicking my butt. Being to work by 6:30am is a little crappy at times but it's not too bad. I can't complain, it's a job, and I'm fortunate enough to have one. I work in a factory that produces rubber for flooring. Roppe Rubber. I work in the lab and basically test everything that could possibly be tested on the rubber when it comes out of production(a large majority focuses on making sure its color is correct). Yes, I do love the random orders of tropical blue and lime green. Besides working an 8 hour work day, I have been trying to get sick (again..:( I think its sinus this time). Aside from that I've been a lame and going to bed early but today although I did babysit I took a day to semi- relax. Yesterday I ran on the treadmill for 20 mins straight, some don't see that as a big accomplishment but I do(and I can def feel it today). Today consisted of: buying myself the new Cosmopolitan magazine,watching the movie Kick-Ass (which was pretty good by the way), skyping, and eating sour gummy worms.
Lately I've realized from not only my own situations but friends that some situations you just can't control. Not being able to control these situations, is called life. And the ugly truth is, most of the time it sucks. You can't change people's minds sometimes, you can't understand what they are thinking or why they act the way you do. You can't control them. Trying to do this can only make the situation worse. Believe me I know. Being the anal person that I am, not being in control in current situations in my life is frustrating and exhausting. I have always been able to control what's going on in my life and the truth is I can't at this time. But I'm trying this new thing of being patient (and yes I'm the hopeless romantic optimistic person) but I can't help but think maybe in the end everything will work itself out the way its supposed to.
And because I watched the last episode of SATC last night and Carrie finally got what she deserved and had been wanting, her BIG problem came and rescued her and it worked out the way we had all hoped.

“Some people are settling down, some people are settling and some people refuse to settle for anything less than butterflies.”- SATC
(Image found on Google)

(P)eace

Taking back my more pessimistic post from earlier today...heres a new one. I tend to have a tendency to over react every once in awhile. I guess what  it comes down to is a lot of the people who are close to me don't realize how much the little things in life mean to me. I've learned in the past year that you can't always get what you want. I have learned that you must go with the flow sometimes and not ask questions. What people tend to forget is sometimes the little things mean a whole lot more then the big, or what seem to be glamorous portions of life. I get frustrated when people who say they will hangout cancel at the very last second every time it's planned due to some "excuse" I understand that things come up but to cancel all the time when your supposed to be there. I don't appreciate it. I get frustrated with how certain words are now thrown around. If you say something meaningful mean it and stick by it. If you don't mean it thats fine, but don't say it. I understand todays world is not pretty and people are struggling. Crap happens. LIFE HAPPENS. Here's a thought.. take a small amount of time to praise someone or say something to make someone feel good (& mean it of course). Some people don't get enough of that and it's sad. Compliments make people feel good, an acknowledgement such as a smile make people feel good. Life happens but while it happens you should take the small things that come with it and be grateful for them.  The small things matter. Atleast they do to me, if you're my friend and reading this here's something. I appreciate you being in my life. You have impacted my life in some way and it has made me me and I appreciate that.

‎"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together." 
— Marilyn Monroe

Doubt.Down.Done.

After sitting here thinking I've realized there is one word that causes a lot of problems in life...doubt. Currently this seems to be an underlying factor in my life. Its every where involving everything. People doubt me all the time in so many situations. Here's the thing.. doubt me all you want. But know your wrong. Know that I am stronger then you think. Know that put to a test I will succeed. ... If you have no idea what I'm talking about with doubt well I believe you are lying to yourself heres the definition:
1 [ trans. ] feel uncertain about : I doubt my ability to do the job.• question the truth or fact of (something) : who can doubt the value of these services? | [with clause ] I doubt if anyone slept that night.• disbelieve (a person or their word) : I have no reason to doubt him.• [ intrans. ] feel uncertain, esp. about one's religious beliefs.2 [with clause ] archaic fear; be afraid of : I doubt not your contradictions.
Here's my doubts:I doubt I will ever get over this.I doubt they trust me.I doubt that things will be better for a long time.Do I have reason to doubt these things? Yeah that about covers it an unbreakable cycle of doubt but..

(found on google)

Someone tell me, do I give up on all my doubts together or still fight for them?

Music=life

Since I promised a legit post I thought I would do it quick before going to hangout with some friends. Btw, I did end up working out. I did a section of the workout video for abs and core (not so sure it was legit...guess we will find out after I use it more. It did have good stretches tho.) I also got on the treadmill and walked at a faster pace for 20 minutes. You have to start somewhere right? Anyway thinking about what I could blog about I've decided on songs that will sure to be a hit this summer....and if not for you then for me at least
10. On the Floor- Jennifer Lopez ( Not sure this is a favorite song of mine but everytime I hear it I want to dance and I can't dance which is saying something.
9. Just can't get enough- Black Eyed Peas.. I personally love this song
8.Rhythm of love - Plain White T's- I know this is an older song but it makes me happy. I picture moving my head back and fourth on a hot summer day while swinging.
7. Till the World Ends.. It's Britney B*tches hahaaha plus it features Nicki Minaj and Kesha
6.The Lazy Song -Bruno Mars. Who doesn't love a lazy summer day in the sun?
5. ET-Katy Perry & Kanye
4. The Show goes on-Lupe Fiasco. This is one of my personal faves.
3. My number three spot will be filled by The Script.. love them!
2. Lady Gaga of course. Her music whether ridiculous or not is catchy and i love it.
1. Bow Chicka Wow Wow- Mike Posner feat. Lil Wayne. 
If my list were longer I would have added so many other songs. Because I'm about to head out tho I decided to keep it short. What are some songs you would add to your summer playlist?

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It's Saturday night and I haven't done a darn thing all day. When I woke up this morning I debated getting on the treadmill. Did I ever make it there? NO.. Which is disappointing. However I do plan to do a video workout (as cheesy as that sounds before I go to bed.. Hey its something right?)  Currently I'm sitting here watching the Green Hornet with my dad and thinking about things. Thats nothing new.  Here are my thoughts in what will probably be a jumbled mess that makes no sense to you at all.
-When do you know when things are done? Now I'm not talking like when a turkey is done, I mean when do you know when situations with people are done? When do you finally announce that "it's done."  this thought has come from thinking about a friend's situation
-I miss things today.. a whole lot actually. I've been away from AU for what 2-3 days and I miss the people there. I miss other people and places as well.
- I've decided that I want a love that will last a lifetime. I saw an article on Yahoo today about an old couple it made me smile and sad at the same time.
-Along with that I stumbled across this when I was on Youtube today Dad and daughter duet . Watching it made me smile. That girl is adorable, I can only hope that one day when I'm older (way older) I can have a kid as cute as that. A husband with a good voice would also be a nice addition.

And because you bloggers are probably tired of reading this random post I've decided that I'm done rambling and will blog a legit post later!

It's Friday!

It's Friday and just because I am pumped to get my new Macbook case from Amazon in the mail (nerd?.. yes I know) and because we all could use a little inspiration throughout the day here's mine:
(Here's a picture I found on Google, under an article called 13 ways to find your blog inspiration.. pretty fitting right?)

“Maybe mistakes are what make our fate... without them what would shape our lives? Maybe if we had never veered off course we wouldn't fall in love, have babies, or be who we are. After all, things change, so do cities, people come into your life and they go. But it's comforting to know that the ones you love are always in your heart... and if you're very lucky, a plane ride away." -Sex and the City

Time's are a changin'

Procrastinating is what I do best lately. After studying all day, my brain is fried. I told myself I would not post this post until it was the end-until it was Wednesday. However sitting in my friends room chillin I've decided why not. By the end I mean the end of my first year  of college being done. What a crazy roller coaster ride this has been. Finishing my first year of college I'm excited and nervous all at the same time. This year has flown by and  I can only image what the next three years will be like. I'm one step closer to big girl world. But I figure when that time comes I will embrace it with one big smile on my face and shout "Hhhheeeellllooooo world!" So since my first year is done there are many things I have learned along the way.
1. You can't always get what you want. - This was shown through me day in and day out from the beginning of the semester. Example one: I missed the Dean's list by.1, yes for me being the grade oriented person I am, it sucked and still does but the Dean's list is not the most important thing in life.
2. You will run into those "oh its you" type of people-I realize this sounds very uhm how do I put this... judgmental. But in college or this stage in your life you see peoples true colors and sometimes they are not so pretty. We all have ran into someone like this.
3. You will learn new language and meet new people. This is a given and I think it explains its self. Here's some new words that have some new meanings to me: Bucky (can be used in the form of bucking or bucked? hahah), Dump (Ex. They were being such a dump!), legit (yeah that's legit), trust (Do you trust that food?). And all of these words have come from some amazing people I have met.
4. Time changes-Time is something that can be a great thing and a hidden evil. Within time changing so do people, places, things that seemed so familiar. Unfortunately times will keep changing and we don't know exactly what they will hold. This may be one of the most important things I learned--When this happens the best thing to do sometimes is go with the flow. Don't ask questions.

I have no idea what tomorrow will hold or the next day after that...I do know that time's are changing. This is evident because of last nights event of Osama being dead. TEAM USA. No one knows what the future holds but thats okay take time to enjoy the little things in life.

And because I haven't ended with a quote in a while here is one not from Carrie Bradshaw but from Sex And the City of course.
“I can’t color enough, I would color all day every day If I had my way, I would use every crayon in my box.” - Samantha

Summer on the brain!

Feeling inspired to make a list and since I am taking a 15 minute study break I thought what the heck, why not blog? So this week starts one that I love and hate to see coming at the same time. Finals week. This is pretty much hell week and I hate when it comes because all I tend to do is study. Which can be lame. But thats ok. I love finals week because it means that something is about to end while something new is about to start. Since this finals week is the one before summer vacation, I'm sure you can all guess why I am pumped to push through the three days I have left. With summer on the brain I have been formulating a list of 10 things

(I think I have become list happy thanks to one of my best friends) I want to do before the summer is over. So without further ado here it is.

1. First on my list is something I have been thinking about since I watched Eat Pray Love.
Read a book. It has been i don't even know how long since I sat down to read a book that I wasn't forced to and actually enjoy it.


2. Get a new swim suit. Fortunately this can be checked off my list because I've already bought two new ones.. I think I have become a little obsessed.


3. To go along with my new swim suits the third thing on my summer list is workout. Now I'm not doing this because I need to lose weight I'm doing this for me. I want to be in shape and be healthy and if your tone along the way well that helps too!;)  After having this past semester be full of nothing but sickness I've realized its time to kick my immune system into gear. 


4. Bake. What I don't know but I love baking things especially cupcakes. Although when I bake they come out of the box I would love to attempt to make them from scratch. 


5.Slip and Slide. It's been a couple of years since I have done this. A group of my friends did this during Freshmen year and I miss those times :(


6. Go to Washington D.C.  Although I have come to the conclusion this will sadly not happen this summer I want it to happen within the next four years.


7.Visit the Zoo.  I always love going to the zoo. I'm a child at heart in case you haven't noticed.


8.Go out with friends and just have fun. I think this explains itself. 


9.Get my tan on. Although this is not healthy for my skin it calms me down and is essential to my summer.


10. I have been convinced within the last 5minutes to go to Little Italy. It may be the closest thing to Italy I can get in the next few years.